Saturday, December 15, 2012
- The Stages of Rejection -
this is my own theory of how to get over a rejection. most ppl have 2 stages, mainly the emo and recovery stage, pretty intuitive eh? well if u noe me long enuf, u would noe i like to do things differently, i have 3 stages. the first is obviously emo as well from the previous posts. the other 2 are of restricted knowledge to only myself, yes im not even gonna blog about it.
recovery is actually not one of them. i noe most of u reading this would be like, then wad the hell are u doing? its because i believe u can nv fully recover from an injury, juz like a cut, a scar will always remain to remind yourself of the pain and suffering you have endured and wad are the lessons you have learnt and the experience that you have gained in the process. if u have fully recovered from it, then you would have gained nothing from going through all those things.
lets start from the emo stage. this is where a swell of emotions are felt, this is where u ask yourself wad the fuck is wrong with yourself. could u have done better? if so, what could u have done better and why did you not do it dumb fuck? sorry for the vulgarities its gonna get rough from here.
the tears are a necessary evil. few years down the road, u might be laughing ur fucking ass off at yourself as to why u reacted that way. however, at that point of time, crying would be the only way to let loose of those stored emotions which u cannot contain no matter how hard u hold it, and i would encourage all to juz let it all out. even if u have to stay up and cry ur fucking heart out in silence to prevent ur whole family from waking up, u do it because its something u cannot control.
tears also teach u the most impt lesson in life and that is you are human and are capable of emotion. it sounds almost stupid that im saying this but i was a firm believer of crying as a sign of weakness for guys. however, now after all this bullshit, my perspective has changed totally. tears are actually a sign of courage, a sign that we guys noe that we are not infallible. its true that crying may seem like we cannot take things in our stride, but would u rather us cry or take our own lives?
there has to be some way of releasing all that stored emotions and crying may seem to be the best and most effective way to do so, next best way is to juz take all that emotion, bring it up to the tallest HDB u can find and throw it down along with u. dun u find it wierd that alot of ppl do take their own lives after breakups and rejections, and i feel because they dun have the outlet to let them all out. anyone who is reading this and tinks we are weak minded should tink again, u could have been the cause.
dun worry im not gonna take my own life, im noe better than probably anyone how impt life is. refer to my posts during BMT to noe why.
so wads next? im done with emo-ing, going onto stage 2. i spent 2 weeks emo-ing about Girl A and about 1 week+ emo-ing about Girl H, how long more do i need to completely let go and finish all 3 stages?
i love my life. ppl who say FML should juz go fuck themselves. life is about ups and downs and i appreciate how my ups are really high and how low my downs can get. everything is about experience and u learn, grow and mature from all these be it highs or lows. the lower u get, the more u learn about urself and the ppl arnd u.
i discovered my other side. this might sound retarded but ive a Devil in me. Death Metal will accompany me through Stage 2. 2 of me is better than 1 of me. i used to have Girl H to help me get over all 3 stages, but now i am alone, however it doesnt matter, i am a master of my destiny. all talk about fate and destiny can go fuck themselves i will chase my dreams and keep moving forward. opportunities come and go and its when u learn to grab onto them will u succeed. my race car dream is right in front of me and i will fucking grab it like a mofo. any other distractions including girls(for now) can juz get the fuck out of the way.
ive got death metal and trance now. music is all i need and it has always been there for me since the beginning of my blogger life. i will wipe away my sorry tears and face life with a new perspective. i am tired of crying about this fucked up nonsense called relationship. i am absolutely done with chasing ppl who never liked me anyway. one is now my v gd fren and the other is my "sister". i dun hate them at all, i juz am sick and tired of being hurt after giving my everything. maybe i should not give my everything until i find out if that person is willing to give as much as me. its ridiculous wad i have to go through juz to let go of someone its juz fucked up.
sorry Girl 3... all i have in my mind now is race car...
P.S. referring to my one of my previous post, conclusion is nice girls always finish and nice guys do finish last. wad about a Devil in nice guy's clothing? im not a religious person but after all the emotions ive been through the last week at least, i believe in an evil like no other that can exist in a person.
Music Took Control at 9:14 PM
