Monday, December 17, 2012
- Best & Worst -
i am having the best and worst few weeks of my life up till now. i may have better and/or worst weeks but in my current state this has gotta be when both collide. best because this is probably gonna be the only time in my life where i can chase the dream of being part of a race car team. worst is because yeah u noe. im hh in the day, all ready to learn and contribute to the team in wadeva minute ways i can. but by nite my alter ego HH takes over my everything and i continue Stage 2 of letting go.
i wanted to review and juz talk about When It Counts Episode 2 but fuck that bullshit, it will never count anymore. now ive finished watching Video Game High School by freddiew on youtube and it is a kickass awesome short feature series. not gonna spoil it here go watch it!
one quote from VGHS is "if you want to be the best, you have to be yourself."
i want to be the best, but my question to that is: which self? the nice guy lame ass piece of shit who ppl(esp girls) find absolutely boring and loser-ish, or the bloodthirsty Devil who shows everything the finger?
anyway dun worry about me changing my blog music to death metal, i wont pollute ur minds with so much negativity. u can go google about it if ur curious but i have to warn u about the lyrical and instrumental violence it contains. for someone absolutely boring like me who does not club or drink or do anything crazy, this is probably about the only way i can find some release in this fucked up world where ppl from other countries come to screw our alrdy v measly lives. yes u noe who u are, given my character and mood now i can say a whole fuck load of things now that will probably get me expelled immediately so i will do the smart thing and not say anything. one day, if i ever find a way to fuck ur lives up i will make sure u guys experience hell on earth. given my current capabilities i cant do jackshit to u all, but i will continue pushing forward and not quit no matter the challenges ahead. this is my dream course and i fucking worked hard to be here and i wont let u fucktards ruin my dream. yes i am complaining and ranting because i tink this world is fucked up and requires a higher power to serve justice. if u were here long enuf, u would noe my previous blogskin is DeathNote themed and i am highly influenced by its tinking and idealogies. call me egotistical, fine i dun care, im not even in the rite mood to argue with anyone now. this is how HH blogs, take it or fuck off.
see wad i mean when i say im a "nice guy" outside but a raging monster on the inside?
its wierd because ive nv been this negative but thats the way i am now. good chance for me to explore the negative spectrum of emotions. i will grow and mature from this whole experience and return to Semester 4 ready to chiong, hopefully in the race car team.
Music Took Control at 12:39 AM
