above are both episodes of Unfold by JinnyboyTV on youtube, do watch them before reading on!

u noe, every story has an ending. be it for better or for worse, it has to end.

Part 1 started off as girl likes guy while guy likes someone else. after getting rejected he discovers about girl liking him. they get tgt and Part 2 follows with a long distance r/s and u noe the rest.

so why am i saying all these? i have to admit cos its kinda similar to me but its kinda same same but different.

(stuck for 15min)

sorry i blanked out for awhile, dun really noe how to continue. the 2 episodes related to me but oddly my mind is juz blank.

anyway to keep the flow going ill digress for awhile. previously when i had absolutely no r/s or whatsoever, i used to follow(am still following) this guy on youtube who talked about r/s in a funny yet mature way. i used to watch because it was juz funny but now that im rewatching it, the r/s parts are really hitting home so v valid points which i will share in following posts. this person stopped posting videos for about a yr because he had problems with his own r/s and felt he had no right to be posting videos talking about r/s when he himself had not followed his own advice and thus decided to disappear without a trace for a about a yr. few months back he returned and im so glad omg. will share his identity and videos soon but for now i tink thats about enuf for digressing.

yeah so as i was saying, all these endings are made by choices. choices which we make can really affect others alot and will shape the outcome of the r/s. but i tink all these choices are made for our own happiness(ive got another short film to share about this as well so stay tuned). happiness which sometimes may not be in our own hands as seen in Unfold.

its juz... argh im getting stuck again. seems im getting stuck pretty often of late. im not emo-ing btw, im done with that.

i have to admit im afraid of getting into a r/s as of now. i used to be juz "if the feeling is right, juz go for it, nothing to lose". but after all these i cant help but feel theres now a certain fear, almost phobia in the sense. ive lost quite abit of my confidence in all honesty having back to back u-noe-what. that word is almost taboo now i so afraid of it. i feel so lost, directionless, im chasing my dream to be in a race car team but thats different. i noe wad i wan for that and i noe my target and goals to meet. but for r/s im juz totally lost. i used to be the bochap about r/s kind, go read all my posts before i returned to blogging and u will noe wad i mean.

i juz need some time to recover, and it is time which im grateful to have before the start of Sem 4 which i really need to be at the top of my game. everyone else is spending this holiday going out and spending time with loved ones and friends while im hiding in one corner of engineering building a fucking fast "go-kart". am i neglecting my friends? fuck yes.

shit im not making sense, first i was talking about r/s then go on talking about neglecting frens. fuck my brain is not making any sense recently. how can i go back to my old self? if u noe me long enuf u would probably only noe the one side of me. the lame ass joker. but how?

how? can someone tell me how?

P.S. recently alot things to share huh hh...