Monday, November 19, 2012
- Split in the middle... -
i wouldnt really call this an emo post but... anyway u have to refer to previous post to understand this post.
so now i am split into 51%(new me) and 49%(old me).
New me: with reference to previous post(nice history essay writing phrase dun u tink?), able to move on and accept the fact that i might not be the one for you. understand your intentions and totally not angry with you. maybe its me, but if its better for you, forget about me and look for your Mr Right.
Old me: still waiting and hoping. waiting for a miracle to happen. still wanting to chase you like me chasing the race car dream. will most likely silently wait till you get attached to some other guy, then slowly disappear, leaving the New me in its place.
i have to be totally honest and truthful here, i haven't fully gotten over you yet, see the 49%? thats a fact and i cant change that. ive nv really cared for someone(esp a girl) so much before. even my frens can prove that LOL. i can even tell them(although i have nv) "hey man, i really care about this girl now", they will reply with something like "get real dude, you? go climb your mountains and sail your boats lah, april so far away sia!"
at the end of the day, whether im the new or old me, i juz wan you to be happy because you are such an impt part of my life. my verdict is to be myself so i will be that 51% acting as an older "brother", protecting you from losers out there who dunno how to give a shit about ppl, esp girls.
at this point, i juz wanna point out, i have tonnes of guy frens who are pretty much pieces of crap and have gfs. im not saying im the most awesome guy or person to be arnd, but even bystanders can tell they are shit given the way they talk and interact with ppl and these girls are like "omg im so in love with you". point im tryin to make is, ppl open your eyes and judge ppl. see the real person inside before you want to commit to any kind of r/s greater than friendship. fully understand them before deciding to fully commit to chasing them, if not at the end of the day u mite be hurting someone, or even yourself. so u mite be tinking, who am i to be giving r/s advice? getting rejected twice le, are you sure i should be the one giving advice? my answer: once again its my bloody blog, i say wadeva i wan and its juz my opinion on how ppl should be treating one another. my opinions, u dun have to accept them.
i noe that if i keep chasing you, one day u might get irritated so ill not affect our friendship by putting you through my lousy "chasing" antics. although there might be little to no diff in my attitude from when im chasing and currently juz caring for you as the "brother", you have to trust me im really not tryin to chase liao. its juz that i dunno any other way to care for someone...
although there is still a part of me who is still waiting, i really hope our friendship will stay as strong as ever =)
P.S. that wasnt an emo post right? i wasnt really emo-ing mah...
Music Took Control at 1:50 AM
