so anyway if u all can infer, i was recently- well not really recent anymore, rejected by this girl lets refer to her as Girl A. so i've known her for a long time and i've kinda had this crush on her but never said anything till recently, by recently i mean few months back. we started "going out" and everything ended on the 3rd proper date, mini-meal dates in school not counted lah. so it seems she just wanted to be friends.

im the kind of person who doesnt just anyhow chase people. i dun chase or stalk crushes fyi. i confessed because i couldnt stop thinking ok. my head almost exploded and i decided to confess. i always knew there would a chance of rejection but u wouldnt noe how it feels until she finally said "我们做朋友好吗？". i never knew i would take it that badly, i really didnt. funny how putting your thoughts into actions actually backfires on you, pretty badly in fact. now all thats left is memories and her trying to "redeem" our friendship.

you don't really have to, i kinda don't blame you anyway. it's just i don't want to see you, at least in the near future, because u remind me of too many things. things that were and could have. time speeds up when you enter uni, what happened about 10 weeks ago feel so far away. it seems like such a long time since we last met at the macdonalds where you gave me the rejection card. once again, im not angry or anything, i juz cant bear to see you, because im in no mood to, my course is depriving me of everything. no drums, little training, little sleep. speaking about my course, about time to go onto Part 2.

oh btw, advice for girls out there: if theres a guy chasing or trying to chase you and whether or not you like him or not, please do not reject the dude and "see" if he tries to chase you again, and you try to see if he really likes you by tryin to chase you again. fact: he won't. example: me. reason is simple, its not like you and the guy were ever together and now another guy is chasing you so you reject the dude. note, YOU rejected the guy and asked to be friends. i never knew it would be so hard but i was kinda relieved when i confessed but it really takes alot alot of courage for the guy to tell someone that he likes her. so now you tell the guy lets just be friends do you know how broken he is? how could you expect him to try and chase you again? without any 3rd party or whatsoever, YOU rejected him in the face and expects him to shrug it off and say "i don't care, im gonna chase you!" wait long long oso don't have. besides if you are really using this "tactic", the guy shouldnt even be chasing you because he failed to see your character problem.

yes if you are curious, i highly suspect my group of friends influencing my rejection so i am pointing the finger at you bunch of superficial sluts. if you all see this and say "hey we did not" well then ignore this lor, im just venting as you should have inferred from the 2nd line of this post.

i have to move on just like i have to move on to Part 2.